Moved.

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Camp is over. Fun is over.

Night walk wasn't scary at all. Thats all. I'm drained

hao xiang ni.

对你的思念 是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦 何时才能出现
亲爱的你 好想再见你一面
秋天的风 一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候 没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过

This is the end already.

You know, i can't change for you. Neither can you change your life for me. I hate this complicated life. I hate going through this. We can never be friends. The minute i see you, or the minute you see me, we know we still love each other but i just cannot bring myself to be with you. We are both from very different worlds. Each and everytime you cry, everyone would just side you. Noone bothers to listen to my side of the story. Just because i don't cry, doesn't mean i'm not a single bit miserable at all. What on hell is this relationship doing to me?

I've made myself very clear about everything. I don't want to stop your fun. I don't want to intrude to your once-very-happy life out there. You, your friends and your closer friends are strong enough to pull you through this. But what about me? Someone telling me she dislikes me after knowing me for so long. Just because you cry, just because your twits, just because you are sad, I'm being sentenced to death by all of them. Noone knows how much i've contributed in this relationship. When you are in need of help, havent i been there for you all the time?

I don't want to say much. Really. I just hope i will lose my memory and pretend nothing has happened before. Including this relationship.

Fucking Miserable Sharon

Maybe it's just like what my sis said. Teenage years, don't get affected by love. It's never worth your time. Never love someone rich. She repeated this for billion zillion times. But that's not what i'm facing now. I feel so troubled. Really. I always hate people who cry a river of tear and write about how fucking miserable their life is on the blog. But hey, i'm doing that now. I'm really miserable. I'm miserable that i'm lonely every night. I'm miserable that i do not get a life. I'm miserable that i can't bear to complain to my good friends how miserable i am when i see them happy. I'm miserable that i can't complain. I'm miserable that no one is standing by me 24/7. I'm miserable nobody give a bloody damn about how miserable i actually am now.

Enough of these miseries. Who don't go through these? I must pull thru this stage. Fucking annoyed my life. I feel like losing my memory now. Perhaps i've watched too much drama. But i don't want to fucking think of you. Cause i fucking hurt you. Alright.

Many things were running through my mind.

Since i left you. Till project period. Till exam time. Till now.

You've never left my mind.

I tried to let you go and i tell myself. No. I've never loved you. I'm just too dependent on you. I need a soul mate. I need a company. I need someone to love me. I need a pillar of support. I told myself not to think of you. I reminded myself time and again not to think back of the happy memories. I told myself i already loved someone else. I told myself you've found someone else. I told myself we're both over. But every time i do that, my heart break a little. Little by little, my heart is slowly shattering into pieces.

I don't want to think about it for now. I shall continue with my hptx. Bye..

Bad romance.

Hi, friday is my last paper. 3 papers down, 1 last paper to go but i have no energy to study already. Everyone's been mugging hard but i kept sleeping and sleeping during exam period. I thought i managed my time well but when i see everyone chionging like mad i felt like i'm the laziest person ever.

But after friday, it's liberty! Hols gonna start soon. Had frolick today with celeste reynold and derry. &.. Samantha Tan i was looking for you!

Reynold just told me online that he's got to study in airport. Add on to my stress only -.-

I shall study my appellation tonight! Goodbye peeps!

It's been a month already. I kind of miss the feeling of going home with someone by my side, miss the feeling of someone texting me every night and the feeling of being loved. But i'd rather miss all these little things than forgetting every single thing that has always been kept in my memory. I miss everything, including you.

LAST WARNING

Don't fucking disturb me. I'm getting more and more annoyed.

I do not ask for a star nor a moon, all i hope is just to not miss you.